There's an ache that's missing today
There's an emptiness that's been filled
There's a cloud that's lifting and drifting away
There's a ragin' storm that's been stilled
There's a joy that's real
There's a wound that's finally healed
There's a future replacing a past
There's a breath of new life in the cast
Words and music by Michael McLean
It is so hard for me to write about these things without tears flowing down my cheeks. These memories are so dear to my heart, and the emotions are overwhelming at times. I wanted to share the above lyrics because music is a big part of my life and I think it can touch the heart in ways that normal everyday conversation cannot.
This picture was taken the moment our birthmother lovingly kissed her baby goodbye and placed her in my arms. Why did she do this? She did not do it for herself. She chose adoption because she felt unprepared to give her baby the life she wanted for her. In placing her for adoption with us, she was giving her baby a better life. She made this choice unselfishly.
After our daughter was released form the hospital, we went to the adoption agency to have an official placement with the birth family. This was another experience with many emotions that we had never felt before, and many that we didn't expect or understand.